I’d love a friend who I can text lyrics to at silly o’clock and have them reply with the next ones and not get mad because of what time it is, Id love to have someone to tell about minimal aspects of my day and them be genuinely interested and find it funny, I’d love someone to talk to about my problems and have them listen and care and give me advice whilst thinking about what is want them to say, I’d love a friend who doesn’t think I’m mad at them when I don’t end texts with several “x’s”, I’d love a friend who feels like they can talk to me about things they’ve got going on and feel like they can trust me to lend a helping hand with their problems, I’d love to have a friend that I see everyday because it’s what we do, a friend to hang out with on weekends and go to gigs with, and drink with, and fangirl with. A friend who isn’t pretentious, and doesn’t judge everything I say, or make me worry about what I’m doing or how I act. I’d love a best friend. All I seem to do is push people away when all I want to do is wrap them in a large ball of cotton wool, or bubble wrap and keep them in my life forever. I miss every single person that used to be all of these things. I’m sorry that I’m a shit friend, and I’m sorry that I’ve pushed so many people away. I miss all of my best friends.