Don't you deserve to be happy as humans we struggle to be happy so find what makes you happy and hold on to it, if it'll hurt someone try to tell them before you do it it'll hurt them less talk to people you trust about the situation how bad could it be? - from a long time fan of you
It’s hard to find a friend that I trust these days. It’s not a case of it’ll hurt someone because in this instance hurt is always going to be inevitable, it’s just finding the right words, which in this situation I’m terrible at. I’ve been hurt too many times to carry on doing what people want me to do and to carry on ignoring my own feelings. And yet it always seems to be me that is portrayed as the bad guy. Because no matter how many times I’ve been fucked over “i shouldn’t live in the past”. Apparently it’s my present actions, and doing what I want, that is the thing to be frowned upon. I care too much what people think of me and it terrifies me.
Thank you for the kind words, I just wish you weren’t anon. X